I Have Made Many Crazy Decisions in My Life: Here Is Why Every One Was Right
July 13, 2026
Looking back, it does not look stable. Moving to Dubai at 18. Taking my son out of institutions. Walking away from work that felt wrong, even when it meant having less. Leaving the good life in Denmark to live in Spain. And now: moving to Bali.
From the outside, it can look impulsive. Unconventional. Maybe even irresponsible.
From the inside, it has been the most honest thing I have ever done. All of it.
Every Decision Came from the Same Place
Every single time, it came from a moment where I knew that if I did not choose myself, I would slowly leave myself. One compromise at a time: by saying yes when I meant no, by staying where I had outgrown, by living a life that looked right but did not feel right.
And I want to be clear: choosing myself did not feel empowering in the moment. Every single time, I felt anxious. I doubted myself. I stood alone in a decision that no one around me understood.
I did not always feel brave. I felt like I did not have a choice: because not choosing would have been a betrayal of myself.
What Those Decisions Cost, and What They Gave
Those choices have cost me things: security, approval, predictability, comfort. People who did not understand, relationships that did not survive the version of me that emerged.
But they gave me something bigger: self-trust. Because every time I chose myself: even when it did not make sense, even when it was hard: I proved to myself that I was right. And life kept getting better, and better, and better.
What Happens When You Stop Looking Outside for Permission
Because I kept going with my intuition, something changed deep inside. I stopped looking outside for permission. I stopped needing life to look a certain way. I stopped fitting into paths that were never made for me.
Instead, I created a life from the inside out. Not based on what is expected. Not based on what is “realistic.” Based on what is true for me.
And the benefit of that is not just freedom. It is presence. It is waking up inside a life that feels like a dream: even when it is uncertain, even when it is not predictable: because it is chosen. Again and again.
If you want to understand yourself more deeply and start seeing the patterns beneath your decisions, Beyond Your Type: The Enneagram is a good place to begin. It is available as a free PDF download or as a printed version for less than 10 euros on Amazon.
